My MO is changing

I almost quit today.

Not in a dramatic, throw-my-hands-up kind of way. Just the quiet, familiar thought:
“Yeah… this is too much. I don’t know what I’m doing.”

My blog subscription thing wasn’t working (or so I thought). Friends were trying to support me, and I couldn’t even get the subscribe button to cooperate. It felt frustrating, a little embarrassing, and very tempting to just… walk away.

Because if I’m being honest, that’s kind of my pattern.

When something feels confusing or I don’t immediately know how to fix it, my brain goes straight to:
“Maybe this just isn’t your thing.”

But today I didn’t quit.

I asked for help. I stayed in it. I kept clicking around, even when I felt completely lost.

And you know what the problem was?

Spam.

The emails were going to spam.

That’s it.

All that frustration, all that self-doubt… and it was a spam folder.

Which feels very on brand for life, honestly.

But the win isn’t that I fixed it.

The win is that I didn’t quit on myself.

I’m starting to realize that confidence isn’t about always knowing what you’re doing. It might actually be about staying when you don’t.

Also… maybe I’m not as bad at things as I’ve decided I am.

Wild thought, I know.

Anyway, if you tried to subscribe and didn’t get an email, check your spam folder. Apparently, that’s where all the important things go 😅

And for me?

I think this counts as a win.